them again

they usually smell like beer
and have beautiful eyes
and there is something obvious and earthy about their sexuality

they are working men and have jobs
what ever they do they are proud of

they can easily be smokers

articulate and intelligent
tho not likely educated in the formal way

they arent tall
have good shoulders
small hips and slim shapely legs
and again
beautiful eyes

did i mention the beer?
so there are 2 things that will come first
beer and work
or work and beer
and tho they are often verbal about their sexual desire for me
well that is what it ...verbal

they have had alot of wives and girlfriends who they still love in a way
and
seems that the girlfriends may still love them

there is something beautiful and enticing about them

and i crave their love like there is a hole in me that only they can fill

and when it ends with one of them
i swear no
no
i am done with them now

i knew he had all the same charge as the others
and that it would be another heartbreak

yet

no way i could stay away
and when we traded sides in bed so he could touch me in the night

he said
it is because he is left handed

OH NO
that is the other thing
they are often left handed

and today i am smothering in sadness
and having lost myself again