with love

i know you might not get this for a bit
after seeing you today i slept without moving for ages
was nice

i had a realization about us tho
that
we likely arent meant to be... be anything
it isnt that you dont make me crazy
i think you are handsome and beautiful and in a way i love you
but in another way
its all drama

and i feel ill with guilt
and about me accepting 2nd place
about A
and about your feelings too

and we are very different
very very
i believe in the magic of the small
and you are so about the big

i do very much still want to do the art piece of you
and hope we can shoot next weekend
and possibly again in the fall

the bracelet is so you and i am happy to have given it to you
happy its on your arm

i really fell for you ...shows me i still can feel strongly and i like that
and if you need a friend i am here

g