pins and rust

stole this idea from somewhere
not sure where
it doesnt work with stainless steel pins
so first pin a design with old fashioned pins that will rust
and then a little salty water in a dish
i take it in and out of the water as i am not sure what works faster and leave it outside either way
the first photo that has been "rusted" was outside for only about 3 days and the pins were place in a different way
and i will show you how the other pics work in a couple of days
it should be more interesting as it has a more complicated design

in process

crow hanging
textiles dyed with leaves and teas
button crow
some metallic stitching
more to do

blanket

made from all the small leftover pieces of lightweight felted sweaters

niagara grocery

some matchbox holiday ornaments
made for niagara grocery up the road
still to be assembled

shibori

stitched up this crow with a running stitch and put it in the dye pot
my shibori maybe
i laugh

b

thinkin about you in a sexual way
the way it was easy
when it was easy
that way
with us

where the wild things are

i liked the movie
quite alot
but
wild things dont have names

i am tired of living alone
i would like to be wrapped up and with and around with someone this stormy night
rather that than at this keyboard
and
someone that makes dinner sometimes
or eats a bowl of cereal with me instead
ok yeah and someone who pays half the rent
or reaching higher
as my son says low expectations arent attractive
help pay the mortgage

so in new age terms everything i just wrote will bring me more of wanting likely

but then
someone to do a garden with would be better too

and fuck a good fight with some make up sex might even be ok
i laugh

that big cat of mine is a perfect cat for an old lady (i am not one yet)
and he likes to sit on the window sill beside the door
sometimes ready to go out
lately we are having west coast rain
not that cold out
but a southwester tonight
that rain forest west coast rain is so fucking wet
and he doesnt and just cant like it
so the second time i open the door for him
he looks out
and not at me
or at anyone but the rain itself
he hisses

she was so cute in her white outfit
that big smile and the little toque
kid asked her to sign his shirt
an autograph
walking that 300 meters people on the side of that sunny road applauding
applauding something
some feeling of importance
of belonging
oh she played her part so beautifully

his words
his poems
made me fall in love with him
and held such promise

and i enjoy watching his words
with others about others
and
another another falling again again

one day i hope he will love again a real woman
not a shadow woman
a shadow woman
a shadow woman

sexual impotence is what i have?
i dunno maybe its the right phrase
please tell me if i am wrong
the question is i think
can a woman do more than be available
enjoy
participate
well and yes instigate... no no that may not be the word
i am trying to say
i am pretty old ... 57...
and the number of GREAT sexual experiences are just not that many
i mean there have been a couple of great lovers
one long term and one less so
and some other great nights
its seems that is always up to the man
how many times... even if its more than once
or the intensity
or duration
my words here just arent cutting it tho
i will say this
if it was me
if i had the power ... or the touch ... or just the what to do
i would make love so much and so long and so intensely and so often
i would touch them the best i knew how they liked and look in their eyes and move so slowly and just the way they liked
and i would do it again with a different feel and tempo
and then again and again
and if i was a man
after we would walk
and that woman would be filled with me
and we would both eat so greedily
needing the calories and with our fingers
even greasy meat and fries and fruit and wine
and touch each other again
fall into a daze and
sleep so deep
except she would wake just a tiny bit and move her hips
and his hand would graze her nipple
just enough
and i would/ he would slide into her
again

an ambitious project collaspsing

I love love love this blog
but dont know how to describe it
all about textiles it seems in their most humble or interesting
just have a look here

more shoes from alanna

november on the west coast

I have a new roomate and she is decorating