leaving

my friend emily left here today to move to NY city for 6 months at least
and maybe leaving here for ever
she slept here last night
and she was in tears most of the time

our hug when she left didnt feel enough
i didnt feel i sent her off well enough
in fact i wonder if i really accept she is gone

i guess i like to think it will be like all the times she has gone before and i knew she would be back soon enough
singing even better
full of stories and her usual angst

last we talked about ideas and ways of being and thinking and making art and all that
she told me
and i hope i have this right
that when she scatted (sact singing) she saw a 3d image in her brain and scatted the sounds around it defining its lines
what an amazing idea
and an example of the depth of her brilliance

this pic is of the bed i made on the floor for her and one of my cats gracing it before emily climbed in

like they said to John Glenn
GOD SPEED EMILY BRADEN