one stitch at atime

i sleep so much these days
last night i slept 12 hours and now at 4 30 i want to nap again
so i wonder and wonder and feel guilty
about missing the days and
then get trapped in too much shame

aside from that i sew
i sew and sew and sew
sitting with 20 threaded needles and stitch little stitches until i have to thread again


it was great during the US election
i found so much comfort in everyday watching of CNN
i knew it would be hard after that....
i laugh
and it was

i am sewing blankets
maybe some would call them quilts but they are just one layer thick

my 3rd husbands sister was a hypnotherapist
and a lying sociopath
but i digress
once when we slept over at her house she sent us down to her "hypno" room to sleep and told us we would feel so wonderful in the morning because
we would be sleep under a blanket that she had programed ...dont ask me how or what
anyway
this so called magical programed blanket turned out to be a grubby looking white polyester thing
a big disappointment to me...as i have a maybe misguided belief that thinks that are magical should have a bit of that look

years later was shown a book on wrapping cloths
japanese and korean wrapping cloths
these are squares of fabric used to wrap a gift are a lunch
a way to carry things around in a bundle
some of these cloths were pieced and hand stitched
the ones i liked the most were of maybe 3 types of fabric in the same colour (at least very close in colour)

so i started one
it was a light coloured green in linen and silk and cotton
all handstitched with cotton embroidery thread using a french seam
i call that an inside out seam

but the piece got bigger and bigger and the green colour was so easy to find in old silk shirts and table napkins and other bits
and i kept sewing
all thru christmas
watching 23 episodes of LOST on dvd

all those lovely stitches

now i would call that a magic blanket.